WARNING: This is pretty heavy stuff. You may not want to read this.
I think I owe you an explanation.
I realise that this blog has gone dormant for the past two weeks or so, and I feel the need to give a reason for that. I was sure that the last vlog was my penultimate one, and not the final one, but that weekend got away from me with so many things happening at the same time and last minute packing problems. Then, back to JB where my life has been eaten up by Obstetrics and Gynecology.
It’s a tough rotation, people. It’s a lot of work in a logbook that needs to be completed, long, tedious, trying, ‘absolutely straining on your feet’ ward rounds, and generally a lot of facts that need to be studied. I am tired, more so than usual, on the weekdays only to find that some weekends are not mine because we have weekend ‘on-call’ duties in the labour room from 9am to 5pm. Have I mentioned that there is no sitting in O&G? It’s a lot of standing around, staying out of the way but at the same time, circling like vultures because we all need to do vaginal examinations, deliveries, pap smears, and a whole lot of other procedures.
It’s all opportunistic, the survival of the cunning.
So, yes, between all of that, I am not capable of churning out anything for the blog. I am attempting to be ‘more hardworking’ this time round, so effective note taking is a thing, rewriting notes is a thing, studying the notes is a thing. I’m just working on being a better student. It’s not easy when you’re used to slacking, then crying before an exam. I discovered that ‘studyblr’s are a thing (basically a Tumblr blog that’s dedicated to ‘studying’) leading my Tumblr dashboard to be filled with pretty stationery, positive sayings, reminders to keep working hard, and excellent tips for being a better student.
I have managed to incorporate studying into my previously ‘fandom-only’ Tumblr experience. I think I deserve some credit for that, haha.
I am back home for a week, odd timing because Hari Raya a.k.a. Eid al-Fitr is this weekend and not last weekend. The rest of the country starts their break from Wednesday or Thursday of this week till the same day next week, but not my uni, we’re ‘ahead’, for some weird reason.
As usual, being back home does not mean I have time to myself. I’m back in charge of whatever household duties (or out-of-house bill payment/bank related nonsense) my parents can’t do due to their work schedule. A holiday isn’t quite holiday for me, which sucks. I am home nonetheless, which is nice. But at the same time, I cannot help but be a little miffed that there’s still work for me here. I wish there wasn’t.
That’s an awfully selfish statement, isn’t it?
I’m a pretty selfish person.
I am back in time to watch all the Comic Con (SDCC, that is) footage that’s been released (be it officially or ‘non-official footage’) which is nice. I think most of the planet is pretty excited by most of the trailers that have been released. Have you seen the X-Men one? 😍
Anyway, I hope you’re having a lovely day/night/whatever time of day it is for you. I hope to be able to blog/vlog sometime this week. x
It is 8.45am. I am at Starbucks with my laptop.
I have become one of ‘those people’.
Let me back it up: I’m going to the bank to deal with my mom’s car loan/’something related to a car that has to be done in a bank’ and the only bank that does it is in SS15. If you have no idea where this is, it’s the worst place to find parking in the whole of Klang Valley. Literally, the only bank that can do the work is this one. So, I woke up bright and early, found myself proper parking for my car, and parked my own butt in the Starbucks near the bank.
So, yes, this whole thing has some purpose.
The first thing I do is walk past Starbucks because it feels weird walking into it at 8.30am. I pace a bit more, then walk in thinking ‘screw this. I need to sit somewhere because it’ll be another hour before the bank actually opens’. Just my luck, the girl behind the counter is a former school mate from the year below me. Am I glad i decided to brush my hair this morning. Small talk ensues, I order my drink, end up paying another RM 3 because she talks me into getting the ‘breakfast set’ (I ended up getting the sausages because those are the most popular item).
She’s studying International Business and is almost surprised to hear I’m studying medicine. I don’t know what to make of that. I choose a seat in the corner, away from ‘prying eyes’ because I’m averse to human contact that way and take out the aforementioned laptop.
I’m not the only one here, of course. Like I said, one of ‘those people’. There’s three of them to my left. Girl, guy, girl. All on their laptops. One with earphones plugged in. One clearly finishing up a presentation.
Here’s the thing about the four of us stationed in this end of the store: we all purposefully brought our tech. We knew we were going to do this. This was a ‘stop’ for me, a rest station before I transit to the rest of my day. I wonder if that’s what they’re doing, too. By the looks of it, they’re also students. They have something to read, to type, to complete. Unlike me, I’m pretty certain what they’re clacking away is ‘school-related'; I’m blogging aimlessly.
Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against ‘those people’. I have simply never understood why people would leave the comfort of their home to come to a store, drink coffee, and clack away at their keyboards when they could easily be doing this in the privacy of their own rooms. I had the notion that they did it because it looks ‘cool’.
Perhaps I was wrong.
Clearly, there is a function to this behaviour. I would know, I’m ‘among them’ aren’t I? Just goes to show that you can never truly judge a situation or it’s participants unless you ‘immerse yourself’ in the same conditions.
I have another half hour or so to go.
This will probably be the penultimate one, unless I manage to squeeze in some time on Sunday. Life is speeding past again.
This one is pretty messy, with a bit of a ‘loud’ start, so be warned.
I won’t lie, I’m really enjoying this whole ‘video-making’ process, It’s not stellar or anything, but it’s so much fun trying to record every bit of life that I find interesting.
I am going to be on a plane for six hours in total tomorrow, here to Kota Kinabalu then back here again. My Lola is not well and my mom needs me to ‘pick her up’. I am bringing my camera along to find ways to vlog on the plane. Hopefully that works out for me.
I hope you’re having a great week! x
Let me just say that despite how nice that video seems, it’s not like this isn’t a rocky relationship, more so when we were younger. With age, our relationship has improved significantly. I guess distance helps that, too.
I am never going to show him this. He’ll think I’m being sappy.