I failed again. I can’t take this anymore. Today seems like one of those days where ending it all would be a mercy. I am just so tired of being like this. I had to walk home from the offices and I cried all the way. My head hurts, my feet hurt, my spirit is just broken. I have this gnawing feeling that Friday isn’t going to bring any better news. I don’ t know what I would do if that happened. I honestly am scared of what I am tempted to do.