Your self-esteem can be very easily shattered. Being with people you’re still getting to know is not easy when you’re nothing like them in so many ways. I wonder how long it will take to get comfortable. I wonder how long it will take for me to not feel like the weird one out.
Balance is not easy to achieve. I have yet to reach the point of equilibrium. I always feel like I am simply tipping to one side all the time. All the time. I won’t lie and say that I’m coping. It’s hard.
People aren’t always what they seem. I am an extremely judgmental person and I typecast people. I do that all the time and I am always so grateful to find out how wrong I was about them.
Then again, appearances are deceiving. People may seem happy but were actually cracking under the surface. People you watch from afar fall short of your expectations because they’re as flawed as you are. Sometimes flaws help you to see past the ‘perfect shell’.
Change is forever. Nothing is static. Things enter your head as quickly as they leave. Retention is key.
I know none of this really makes sense but honestly, nothing makes sense to me right now. I’m fraying at the edges.