I woke up in darkness
Surrounded by silence; oh where
Where have I gone?
So lately things haven’t been going according to plan. The mock A-level exams are next week and I am still struggling through my subjects. I feel completely foolish right now. I wish I could shoot myself for some reason. Its so ridiculous how silly and useless I feel. Somehow I never keep my word. I never get to focus my mind to what really matters. I never put my heart and soul to the things that matter.. or should matter the most. Instead, I get distracted and fall into my old ways. I bet you.. you’ll be able to find posts like this in the arhives on the right hand side of this page; many many bitter posts about me hating myself.
But I need to learn to forgive my own stupidity. I need to learn that I am fallible in more ways than one. I must understand that I am just a human being. I need help from Someone way above little me.
You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again